Last Few Days “Death”

Hello Friends, How are you? I was away for a while as I was fighting with our new invisible virus 🦠 demon friend COVID

From last one year I haven’t visited anyone, nor has anybody visited us but how it entered our house is still a mystery. On 16th April my Father- in- law was inflicted with cold, cough and his eyes were red. It alarmed me and with the consultation of the Doctor we started his medication, to avoid his doubt and tension we decided not to tell him and treat him secretly.

We told him it’s a mild flu as he is nearly 90 yr old. His Heart conditions are not very good and he can’t do anything of his own. After his reports came positive, I did not allow anyone near him and personally took care of him. All the family members were isolated as everyone was infected by that time. While nursing him, I got infected so badly that on the 16th day he was cured but my situation got worst. I went for test, as it was my 13th day, my COVID report came Negative but I was still in high fever, 103-104 for constant four days. On the fourth day my oxygen spo2 level started dropping below 78 and all day it remained 87-88. At night it dropped at the level of 48 and I got unconscious.. This is the moment when I was sleeping and in my subconscious mind I saw a shadow who was pulling me towards him and I magnetically got swayed away, sleeping in his lap.

Suddenly I heard a voice of my daughter screaming “Mumma” and she shooked me. The eco and the anguish in her voice created the force to pull me back from the Demon’s lap, instilling the life in me. I saw her sitting beside me with her Dad and calling Doc for help. I was dying but as we all know “Doc is the God on Earth” my Brother Dr. Prashant Rai and Our family Doctor Dr. Ashwani Mehta called up and started the medication but the biggest problem what we faced was organising oxygen cylinders for survival and after the fight of eight days I am on the Path of Recovery. Steroids are being reduced and injectables removed, I am now managing to breath more than 6-7 hrs without oxygen support during the day.

Sharing the experience in few lines with you all. I am grateful to the Universe and God for whatever I have today .. I can breathe and I am alive amongst my family 🙏

Fascinating it was

The soft tender arms 

Holding me tight,

embracing softly,

Cozily I was falling 

In the warm hug,

Smiling at me it said

Come darling! let’s go ..

I smiled and holded it back

Lazily sleeping and murmuring 

Wait! let me rest for a while..

Just like this in your lap.. 

Holding the waist carrased.. 

Minutes later it said 

Time to go baby .. ‘Come’

Suddenly I heard 

Deep anguished voice “Mumma”..

Loud voice shooked me and I saw

That shadow fading away 

I was craving for it more 

But the echo kept the shadow cast away .. 

Was it a dream or hallucination? 

I was happy and smiling .. ready to go

Unless that loud voice of my daughter 

Stopped me from going along 

I sensed the chilling wave once it left

I was cold to death..

“Nivedita” jyotsna

34 thoughts on “Last Few Days “Death”

  1. “🙏 I am extremely happy to have recieve such kind words. Kindly accept my #gratitude”

    I do accept your gratitude as the greatest show of respect and dignity; from my heart to yours, I sincerely thank you Bhaatdal. And sorry for the super long delay in responding hahaha

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  2. Dang it!! this virus has made everything so much more difficult than it already is. Hope you are doing well now. such a realistic read could relate so much since it has happened in my family. the experience was horrifying for me and i pray no one has to go through such turmoil. tough times!! praying for your speedy recovery!!

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    1. Thank You 😊 Dear.. Yes I too pray that no one gets this, not even the enemies. Those who have gone through can know how horrifying it was.. I hope everyone in your family has recovered by now. Please Take care

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  3. “This is the moment when I was sleeping and in my subconscious mind I saw a shadow who was pulling me towards him and I magnetically got swayed away, sleeping in his lap.”

    “I was dying but as we all know “Doc is the God on Earth” my Brother Dr. Prashant Rai and Our family Doctor Dr. Ashwani Mehta”

    Wow these were such profound quotes, they capture both the severity of your brush with death and your critical predicament of urgency. Your situation is beyond words, I have never experienced anything like this and yet you were able to communicate this in a way where I seriously felt your distress and the very trying circumstance for you and your family.

    I am thankful that with the wonderful support you had and your love of GOD, you were able start a turn for the better in about eight days but I hope that you or your family never experience anything like this again, and I am glad that your Father- in- law made a recovery.

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      1. Yes my heart feels for you and is with you 🙌💘. Hold strong my Sunshine, you have come this far and can make it even further 💙🙏🤩.

        lol you want my real identity in terms of name?.

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              1. Yes I am of the same view 🤟💙. This reemphasizes what a lovely character you have and what an incredible friend you are 🤗💕💐. I can’t thank you enough except to repay you with the same dignity and prayers 👍☺️

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                  1. Yeah I was thinking to myself that you seemed to be a member that I had interacted with before but I couldn’t put my finger on it, then I remember that the earliest we had met was actually in a topic about weight gain haha

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                  1. Yes we definitely did speak prior to our recent conversations sometime in 2020, if I remember correctly haha. And thanks to you, we are once again speaking with each other 👍😂💙💙


  4. So emotional and strugglesome journey to see through…
    Wish you the fastest recovery. May God be on your side… Power that saves is bigger than what perishes…
    Get well soon. God bless. More power to you

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  5. Jai ram ji ki jyotsna ji it’s good to hear you you a strong lady you had to recover take gd care of yourself 🌹🙏🌹🕉

    Sent from my iPhone


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  6. Thanks God you are on the recovery! Your love for family especially Father- in- law is so wonderful. Mercy is defined by need, not merit or lack of merit. You were perfect mercy for family. The peaceful dream or hallucination are a foretaste of the eternal space for people with charity.

    Bless you!

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